Competition

Competition is petty
competition is just argh
i mean it just gets too complicated , frustrating and greedy.
Anyway my bro is @ da falls festival im still soo jealous
thats all 2 report
oh yer im goin away 2morro lol
2 orford with my bestie
thats alll xox



pins and needles through my heart
my whole body is numb
baby i would do anything to be with u 1 last time
coz i neva thought that this would be true
but all the thoughts lead back to u
bak 2 what woz nva said
but that part of my life is behind me
a laugh , a smile , an enternal love can exhist
or so i thought.........

Boredom

well nuthin has realli happened i met scottie lol he is alrite he just has a sick mind ;) nah not realli nuthin xciting happened again so i thought i would leave a fresh poem lol xox
take me away
to a place where someone will know me
where some one will love me
where some one will recognise me

all the happiness i thought i knew
all the thoughts lead back to you
where we left things at

i cant handle these emotions
the thoughts
the feelings
the heart ache

and i dont wanna break into pieces
but i cant help it
i dont wanna talk about it
i just want to cry
coz im in love
i want him 2 kno how i feel
want him to know what is real
want him to know who i am
does he remember me
does he remember what we had

i cant always run and hide
i just cant comprimise
i cant watch along the sidelines
i got to let it go

well... um. My bro is bak from QLD and he is goin 2 da falls im so jealous im going nxt yr i dnt care wot my parents say i am going. Christmas was good i got clothes which is always good. im going 2 meet em's "friend" 2moz with essie. so that should b ...interesting.. nuthin else 2 say
so i will leave u with a poem by unknown. but i think i can relate to the girl. xox

She was a young girl
at the age of 15
watching the world go by
she cant dry her eyes
her heart was broken
she was lost inside
too many problems
suffacating her
she never knew where she belonged
and that is that as he closes the book of holy lies
he dries his eyes
and says goodbye

My blog

Welcome to my blog. I hope you have an enjoyable visit including a few laughs at my average day life.
Well it is friday and we all know what that means party night for those who are 18 :(
well actually since all our clubs are closing i expect to see alot more of my family and some friends now. My bestie is on an interesting trip to the movies and for some reason i cant get the song scottie doesnt know out of my head. Any ways i hope things went well em.
If my friends are reading this and r like "how come im not meantioned?" i hav a webby 4 them www.freewebs.com/janjan77
Last night i had a dream that i was at a pool and the plug came out and a big whirlpool was sucking people in and they were dieing and as i was in the water i was diening but someone i know pulled me out.
it has me totally confused this dream.
i sometimes feel like i am drowning and need to b saved though
well my brother needs to use the phone as usual and mum is letting him
moresome other time bye luv Jan Jan xox